Friday, January 1, 2021

2020 Summary and Stats

 2020 has come to an (almost) end and here's just a bunch of fun stats and info from this year of reading.

I will say that I started this year barely reading anything.  Being an English major from 2009-2013 killed just about any love for reading I had and I didn't read much since graduating (seriously, probably less than 15 books over the past 7 years). I kept wanting to get back into reading but my brain just wasn't having it for whatever reason. Then, as part of my 2020 resolutions, I wanted to start reading more books and I set my GoodReads goal at 20 books and got an Audible subscription.  I take my dog to daycare twice a week and it is about an hour drive round trip.  So I had 4 hours a week where I was in a car with nothing better to do than listen to audio books (I think I finished 3 over the first two months of the year?).  Then the pandemic hit and I didn't leave my house for 2 months and my audiobook listening dropped off.  Then, while I was finishing up my MBA degree during the first half of this year, I just decided to give romance books a try.  I had been watching some romance booktubers and I figured these sounded like fun, fluffy books that I could just enjoy and hopefully wouldn't trigger my English major aversion to reading.  Romance books were the ticket and the rest is history (that you can read on previous reviews). 

Total # of Books Read: 140

Romance Books: 115

Total # of Pages Read:  42,768

DNFs: 9 

 Longest/Shortest Books:


Average Rating: 

New Favorite Authors: Polly Hall, Melanie Harlow, Max Monroe, Lucy Score, Nicole Snow

Favorite book: The Taxidermist's Lover by Polly Hall

I read this book as an ARC and loved it so much I bought a hardcover copy when it was released.  There is a review on the blog already but I'd just say here that if you find the synopsis interesting go ahead and give it a go.

 

I also loved Riley Thorn and the Dead Guy Next Door by Lucy Score and I think that one has a much broader appeal.  It is a very light murder mystery comedy with a bit of romance and psychics mixed in so if that sounds more up your alley than The Taxidermist's Lover, I would highly recommend it as well.

 

5-Star Reads: 34

     

     

     

 

Least favorite book: I don't have one that sticks out to me.  I did make an effort to value my time reading and only pick up books that a) I really think I'm going to like and b) not feel bad about DNF'ing books that weren't working for me.  I usually DNF around the 30% mark and I do make a note in my GoodReads review about why I put the book down.  Here's a link to my DNF shelf on GoodReads if you really want to look through them.  I don't have any 1-star ratings this year and most of my 2-star books had some aspect I did like but usually didn't follow through overall in their execution.



Wednesday, December 30, 2020

Romance Wrap-Up December 2020

 Not So Prince Charming - Lauren Landish

This is the second book in the Dirty Fairy Tales series and follows Gabe and Bella.  She's a down on her luck waitress and art student, he's a hitman with a heart of gold.  While this is a stand alone in terms of the romance, the underlying plot that brings Gabe and Bella together is continued from the first book so I do recommend reading the series in order.  Gabe is hired to kill Bella but once he gets close to her, he determines he must to everything in his power to protect her instead. I know hitman turned romance hero might not be everyone's cup of tea, but I loved it. I thought their chemistry was amazing from the beginning (who knew dry humping in the forest could be so hot?) and I liked how we got some cute domestic-y scenes with them together.  I do wish we would have gotten a little more of Gabe studying Bella or doing his initial recon of her so we can see how his feelings have changed.  The book opens when he has been watching her for a while and has already formed most of opinions of her whereas she has no idea who he is.  It would have been interesting to have him think of her one way and then be along with him for the journey as he finds out more about her which leads to him changing his mind.  This book is split POV between Gabe, Bella, and Blackwell (the big bad guy across the series).  We get more of Blackwell's POV in this book than we did in the first, which I really liked.  This book really reminded me of a Nicole Snow type plot where it leans a little into the action-movie space and a bit of suspension of disbelief for some aspects (Bella finding out Gabe's secret, for example) but I'm a sucker for those types of romances so I'm on board 100%.  I loved Bella as a character and really respected her trying to make her own way in the world which just made me love Gabe for taking care of her in any way she'd let him.  The whole cast of characters surrounding our main couple was really well developed and I really enjoyed the scenes with Bella and her diner family.  I thought Gabe's relationship with his brother was really sweet and I thought it was a nice twist on a revenge trope.  

  Accidental Shield - Nicole Snow

This is the sixth book in the Marriage Mistake series and follows Valerie when she wakes up with amnesia in Flint's home.  He tells her that they're married but as her memories slowly come back to her, she realizes the truth about her past isn't as clean cut as Flint made it seem.  He promises that he'll protect her - well, him and all his Navy SEAL turned private security buddies.  On the surface, this book had everything I love about Nicole Snow's stories.  Big, protective, alpha male with a heart of gold.  Strong, feisty heroine who isn't content to let the man do everything.  Fun cast of side characters.  Action plot right out of a summer blockbuster.  But where this one lost me was the amnesia plot (which is a pretty significant part of the book).  This is the second book I've read where the heroine gets amnesia and it is not a trope for me.  The first 40% or so of this book is Val cycling through being happy she's alive, wondering why she can't remember anything, trying too hard to remember and hurting herself, Flint coming in and telling her to rest, her throwing a self pity party, then she takes a nap and feels better.  Rinse and repeat.  I understand that is probably a realistic reaction to losing your memory, but I didn't need to read about it for 40% of the book when not much else was happening.  It would be one thing if we only got that cycle when we were reading Val's POV, but we get it from Flint's POV as well since he's at home caring for her.  I also didn't get any chemistry really between the two characters, which was a real shame considering they were housebound together for the majority of the book.  I did really like all the secret-ops type stuff we got into right at the end and really wish we had gotten more of that throughout the book.  Overall, I was just bored and annoyed for most of the book which made this my least favorite book of the whole series (but I'm in the minority there considering this book is tied for first place based on the Goodreads review averages). 

Out of Love - Jewel E Ann

This a NA romance that follows Livy and Slade during their last year in college.  After reading some other reviews, this is apparently a spin off standalone from the author's Jack and Jill series and there are spoilers for that series in this book (the hero from that series is Livy's dad). Livy is doing her best to live her life as she wants under the eye of her overprotective father.  Slade and his German shepherd Jericho are in one of her classes and she is instantly drawn to him, wanting to figure out his secrets.  When those secrets are revealed, Livy will have to make a choice that could disrupt her life forever.   So right off the bat, I almost DNF'd this book.  I would have, except that I had just DNF'd 2 other romance books in a row and I was determined to not make that 3 in a row.  The one thing that kept me going was Livy's relationship with Jericho.  I was confused by Livy's characterization and was even more confused why she suddenly was so fixated on Slade.  She explains in the book that she has always been fascinated by mysteries and just wanted to know if the rumors about him were true but that didn't feel believable enough to me.  If super grumpy heroes who fall for super bubbly heroines are your thing, then this book could be for you.  Slade is so grumpy that for the first 20% or so, he barely talks to Livy and just nods instead.  There were two things that really knocked this book down a few pegs for me: the lack of Slade's POV and the time jump at the end.  I think we get about 5 chapters from Slade's POV and the amount of character development done in those chapters is really fantastic.  Slade is so closed off and stoic most of the time he is with Livy that I wasn't convinced he liked her at all until we got his side of things. Also, I just personally hate the large (5yr) time skip at the end of the book.  It is just angst for angst-sake.  I felt like the exact same decisions could have been made without the time skip and it still would have been very raw and emotional. 

***Trigger warning *** Livy was almost sexually assaulted early in the book but she was saved before anything physically happened although she does have residual emotional aftereffects.  However, this acts as the catalyst for a lot of the events in the book and is referenced a whole lot so if that something you want to read about constantly then I'd pass on this one.

A Very Bossy Christmas - Kayley Loring

This story follows Declan, a corporate lawyer, and his assistant Maddie.  He asks her to be his date to three family functions between Christmas and New Years in return to giving her time off during the holidays.  She reluctantly agrees and the fun times begin.  This book is witty banter central!  Declan and Maddie can go toe for toe and each give as good as they get with the sassy remarks and quick retorts. The flirting is off the charts and both are insanely attracted to the other.  Once they give in, they are both all in to this relationship.  It was so nice to see the hero as a genuinely good guy who may strive for professional excellence but also cares about the people in his life.  I loved how integral family was for both Declan and Maddie - both had standing holiday traditions with their families and both seemed to really enjoy spending time at home.  Declan has been the first #bookboyfriend I've had in a while so I was all in.  I did find the POV switching to be a bit strange and it threw me off quite a few times.  I got my bearings quickly enough, but it wasn't as smoothly done as other books I've read.  For example, after Declan and Maddie first sleep together, we end in Maddie's POV.  Then the next part is in Declan's POV and Maddie is walking in on him dancing naked in his hotel room which is the last place we saw Maddie in her chapter.  So it took me a minute to figure out that after the sex Maddie left and went back to her room and now we've flashed forward to the next morning.  That sort of jarring jump happened a handful of times for me and it was just enough to take me out of the story that it got a little annoying. I also found the romance moved VERY quickly, much more quickly than I felt either of their characters would actually move in real life.  The book tries to explain this away with the "when you know, you know" idea but it didn't quite land for me.  

Beauty and the Beast - Georgia Le Carre

This story follows Skye and Luca. Skye's father is sick and in order to pay for his treatments, she sold herself to a man for what she thought would only be a month but turned out to be longer.  Luca sees Skye at a party with this man and decides he must have her.  Since he is a mob boss, the other man doesn't argue and agrees to let Luca have Skye.  Luca and Skye agree that in exchange for her being his for 1 month, he would pay for her father's treatments until he is all better (there's an actual contract involved this time).  Skye is swept away to a mansion outside Boston where she'll be staying for the next month and subject to Luca's every whim.  What initially intrigued me about this story was the 1 month deadline.  In most mafia romances, the heroine is sold/kidnapped/etc with the intention of being with the hero forever and they eventually fall in love.  In this case, both parties were aware of the relationship's expiration date.  Unfortunately, that one plot point was the only thing I really found interesting in this book.  There were a few times where interesting plot points were brought up but there was so little emotional payoff or the potential issue was resolved immediately that it was like the actual issue never mattered.  For example, there's a gardener at the mansion and Skye finds out she needs to win him over before he'd let her join him in the garden.  Sounds like a great time for some character development, right? Nah.  Skye brings him 1 box of cookies and he was suddenly all smiles and let her garden with him. I also honestly didn't understand why either character actually liked the other one besides their chemistry in the bedroom.  There weren't really any tender moments where one revealed a small secret or gradually grew closer. 

The Christmas Fix - Lucy Score

This is the sequel to Mr Fixer Upper and follows Cat as she tries to get her home improvement TV show to save Merry, CT after a hurricane floods the town.  The town manager, Noah, thinks she is just going to use his town as a sob story and he wants to prove that the town doesn't need her help.  He eventually relents and Cat's new mission is to show him just how wrong he is about her. I really liked this story and loved both Cat and Noah.  Cat is a strong, independent, smart businesswoman who is used to people underestimating her and she enjoys showing them how wrong they are.  Noah is a divorced dad of a 12 year old daughter and is a professional risk mitigater with the town budget.  It was a little strange to connect more with the hero in a romance book rather than the heroine but I could see so much of myself in Noah.  I loved how slowly him and Cat got together.  They went from enemies to angry flirting, to regular flirting, to actually being together.  I did feel like the book dragged on a bit in the middle because there were so many projects around town that Cat was working on but there was a good mix of character growth and relationship growth scenes intermixed with the construction scenes so it wasn't too much of a drag.  I do with there was a bit more of an internal struggle with Cat when she decides what she wants at the end of the book. She's a very internally focused character when it comes to making decisions so she didn't really do much talking it out with other characters so I would have liked to get more of her internal struggle with her decision.  I did love Noah's declaration at the end (it made me cry!) and was perfect for his character - not too over-the-top emotional but still 100% authentic and real.

Violent Beginnings - J.L. Beck and C. Hallman

This is the second book in the Moretti Crime Family series and takes place during the same time as the first book, Savage Beginnings.  We're following Markus, member of the mafia, and Fallon, the girl he buys at auction.  She reminds him of his lost first love and his main struggle through the book is battling his emotions between how he thinks he should treat her and how he wants to treat her.  This is a dark, mafia, captive romance so there is a pretty heavy amount of non-con scenes at the beginning as well as some physical and mental abuse.  I really appreciated how much we were in Markus's head, especially when he was doing some not great things.  I think it really helped round out his character and since he's so stoic on the outside, we needed that internal battle on the page for his change at the end to come across as genuine. I found Fallon interesting because she was so much more stoic than a normal person would be in that situation.  Multiple characters notice and remark how she isn't crying or screaming or trying to get away.  Fallon initially says she is just trying to play it smart because she knows there's no way she can get away from Markus but we later find out what her true reasoning is.  I felt like the first chunk of the book really dragged on.  I know it was all establishing their relationship and how they slowly grow to trust one another and maybe even care about the other but I wish we would have gotten more of the main conflict earlier.  I was getting a little bored with the domestic scenes. I also thought one of the main reveals at the end was unnecessary and I found it explained in a confusing way so it took me a minute to figure out what, exactly, the 'twist' was.  I think the whole ending would have been a lot cleaner if that part wasn't included.

Runaway Road - Devney Perry

This is the first in the Runaway series and follows newly divorced Londyn as she sets off on a cross country road trip from Boston to California to find a friend from her past.  She gets a flat tire outside a small town in West Virginia and meets local mechanic Brooks.  The two form a friendship that quickly turns flirtatious and then goes from there.  I really liked Londyn's backstory as a runaway teen who lived in the back seat of a car for years.  I think it really touched on a part of society that many people don't experience and may judge others who have been through those times so to see a character who has come out of that background and is now a fully functioning adult was nice.  I do wish we would have gotten more of her relationship with her ex husband.  She gives the reader an overview of how they got together and how it ended and throughout the book we get snippets about how he'd treat her if she did X or Y but I didn't feel like that relationship had as much of an impact on the plot as I was expecting it to (especially since it was a very recent divorce).  I thought Brooks was a total sweetie and it was obvious that he had his life together and was really looking for a partner.  I loved their chemistry together and I really liked how we got a good number of scenes of just them talking about life and their backgrounds and everything. This book reminded me of a less-angsty, less dramatic version of Drive Me Wild by Melanie Harlow.  

The Obsession Duet - J.L. Beck and C. Hallman

Cruel Obsession (book 1) and Deadly Obsession (book 2)

These books follow Dove and Zane. She is just a normal girl, he's a mafia hitman who is very protective of her and stalks her to ensure her safety.  I picked up this duet after reading a preview at the end of Violent Beginnings.  The two books are shorter than I normally look for (book 1 is 196 pages, book 2 is 248 pages) so I sort of viewed them in my head as one longer book and read them back to back.  Not much changed for me between the two books - the characters, writing, and plot were consistent.  There was so much about this duet that I wanted to like, but the reality just wasn't where I wanted it to be.  The pacing of these books was giving me whiplash.  It felt like we would accelerate really fast to a high tension/high emotion scene and then the next paragraph would suddenly be slamming the breaks back down to a pretty mundane scene.  And this happened a lot throughout the book.  I also couldn't get a handle on Zane's character.  His chapters were really interesting because we got a lot of his inner thoughts and conflicts about how he's treating Dove and what decisions he needs to make but I never felt grounded, never felt like he came to any real conclusions.  It seemed like every time we were in his head, he was constantly wrestling over the same decisions which ended up being frustrating because I just wanted him to pick a lane already.  I thought the dynamics and relationships between the different mafia families was well done and they had very clear distinctions.  I did get a little irritated at the plot because it felt like Dove was just a pawn that the different mafia families kept stealing from each other but it all came together in the end alright for me.  I thought Zane and Dove were really cute together and they really seemed to understand each other despite them living very different lives.  I also appreciated how strong of a character Dove was, despite her name, and how she took the initiative to save herself and Zane.  She wasn't ever a helpless heroine and she proved herself a handful of times throughout the book to be very resourceful and smart since she couldn't physically overpower anyone.

Sunday, December 20, 2020

The Widow Catcher - Jonette Blake

 The Widow Catcher follows Delia Frost, a bank teller, as she gets wrapped up in a web of mystery and murder.  She gets invited to a book club where the other elderly members are slowly dying one by one and the host of the book club believes they are being murdered.  However, all the deaths appear to be accidental.  The host of the club wants Delia to investigate these deaths in the hopes of being able to prove there was foul play involved.  Set in a small town in Australia, most of the town knows each other which only deepens the mystery as there's a good chance the killer is someone Delia knows.

I really liked Delia as a character.  She was interesting, flawed, and not someone I would normally picture as the protagonist in a murder mystery.  She is in her early 50s and is thinking about quitting her job so she and her husband can travel around the country.  In most of the thriller/mysteries I read, if the protagonist is a woman she is normally in her mid-30s and is trying to work her way up the career ladder or make some sort of headway in her life.  Delia, however, is on the back end of that slope.  She's had a long career at the bank and has two grown children who just left the nest.  It was a really interesting perspective to read from and we know exactly how Delia feels about these changes in her life.  She loves her job at the bank, she wants her children back home, and she's growing a bit resentful of her husband.  I think she's a very interesting and flawed character and she made for a fun reading experience.  It was refreshing to have a mystery protagonist who wasn't a cop or journalist as is the case in many books.  I thought the bank teller angle was interesting and gave her particular insight into the lives of these people who were being murdered.

My biggest problem with the book was Delia's lack of agency in the last 40%.  In the first 60%, she was reluctantly getting pulled into this murder plot.  She initially thought it was just some old lady going crazy but she slowly realizes it is real.  But then she doesn't really do anything about it?  The last half of the book really felt like Delia was a direct reader stand in who just stood around as a pawn and had the plot happen to her.  I didn't feel like she was making any decisions herself, she didn't solve the case, and in the end it seemed like Delia was in pretty much the same place as when she started the book.  I wanted this nice bank teller lady to be the one to crack the case on these murders that no one else believes are murders but I didn't get the satisfying ending I was looking for.  I was also expecting Delia's parrot Monty to play a bigger role in the plot since he was so good at mimicry but that didn't happen.  The first half of the book deals a lot with Delia always putting other people before herself.  It takes her forever to tell her husband her true feelings about their current living situation because she doesn't want to upset him.  There's a lot of her going back and forth with herself weighing the options of maybe she can just grin and bear it so she doesn't have to speak up.  I was expecting her to come out of her shell a little bit though this murder investigation and stand up for herself more.  And while there was a bit of character development, it was no where near as much as I wanted or think there needed to be in the book.

I liked the overall murder mystery plot.  We get chapters from the POV of the various women who are being murdered so the reader knows right from the get-go that the murders are real but we don't know who is committing them.  And then we see other characters reading about the death in the newspaper and call it an accident.  I think the real tension in the story comes from the reader knowing the truth and waiting for Delia to figure it out.  I thought the book club angle was interesting and I wished there were more scenes from that club.  It was fun to see them all interact and Delia's somewhat judgemental attitude toward them. I thought centering the mysteries around older people dying was really interesting because one character even mentions that elderly deaths aren't looked at as closely as if someone younger had died so, in a way, it is easier to get away with murder that way.  However, I was a bit disappointed that Delia basically gets the whole explanation laid out for pretty early on in the book and then the rest of the story was her struggling if she believed it or not and thinking about getting proof one way or the other. I think if Delia had more agency in the second half of the book and actually decided to get concrete proof against the person accused of these murders, then it could have been really interesting to see her grapple with the outcome of that investigation (especially if she wanted the accusations to turn out false but they were true).  However, it felt like she just tip-toed around the whole situation and didn't want to be involved at all.




Overall, it was an interesting idea and I liked the first half, but the story really fell flat at the end and I wanted more agency from our protagonist.

260 pages

Thanks to BookSirens for the review copy. I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.

Friday, December 18, 2020

Possession - Katie Lowe

 Possession is a psychological thriller that follows Hannah as her past comes back to threaten her future.  Ten yeas ago, Hannah's husband was murdered in their home but Hannah doesn't remember anything from that night.  She is, understandably, the main person of interest in the case until the police end up charging someone else with the murder.  Hannah takes her daughter and moves on with her life until a popular true crime podcast dedicates a whole season to her husband's murder.  The podcast casts doubts on the case, Hannah's memory loss, and unearths other troubling parts of Hannah's past.  

The part of the book I was most worried about ended up being my favorite - the podcast.  Despite loving to read thrillers and watching all sorts of police procedurals on TV, I have yet to fall in love with the true crime genre.  I've tried a book here and there, but didn't like them mostly because I found the writing pretty dry and I felt the story leaned too hard on the 'this is all true' aspect to pull the reader into the narrative. I know true crime podcasts are very popular and I haven't tried any of them out yet. That being said, I know how popular true crime podcasts are and incorporating true crime podcasts into thriller novels is a bit of a recent trend. Before reading this, I was worried it would come off too heavy handed or would be used as an excuse for an exposition dump.  I was pleasantly surprised that neither of these options ended up being true.  I think the podcast angle really worked well for me because it was set up as the antagonist in the story.  Hannah is not a part of the podcast and she listens every week just like the rest of the audience.  We don't get any perspectives or behind the scenes from the podcast host so the reader sees the podcast as an outside force coming to ruin Hannah's life.  I loved getting Hannah's reactions as she listened to the podcast episodes and it was a constant source of tension in the novel since the episodes are released weekly.  

 I think Lowe did an incredible job writing the slow psychological breakdown of Hannah.  Psychological thrillers, from a reader perspective, can be tricky to get just right.  In this case, the gradual but consistent disassembly of Hannah's life and what she thought was true was incredibly paced and explored.  The story is told in first person so we are in Hannah's head and there is a lot going on in there.  Hannah is a psychologist and is therefore a bit hyper-aware of her actions and thoughts but that doesn't stop her from doing things that she knows maybe she shouldn't.  These sorts of contrasts grow in magnitude throughout the book and give the reader a really good view into Hannah's mental descent.  While the podcast is the main antagonist in the story, much of the tension and emotion in the book comes from Hannah internally.  Sure, once a few episodes are aired, the community starts whispering about Hannah and there are more external consequences but the majority of the story is Hannah and how she's dealing with finding out these missing parts of her husband's murder. The way the narrative style changes during the story is also incredibly well done and so gradual that I really didn't notice it was happening - which is exactly how I like it!  It is really fun to go back to the first few chapters and compare them to the last few and compare the style of both sections.  Lowe did a great job getting the reader into Hannah's head and keeping them there all the way through to the ending.  

The relationships Hannah has with the other characters were handled really well.  I think each character - Dan, Evie, Darcy, and Sarah - all give us one particular part of Hannah's life and the reader can use that relationship as a lens to see how Hannah is coping.  Sometimes, with side characters, I can get them confused if they don't show up often enough or aren't distinct enough from the other characters.  For example, if a main character has three friends, all three better be distinctive from each other and each serve their own purpose in the narrative or else my brain is going to just squish them all together.  In this case, each of the side characters were very distinct and Hannah is different with each of them as well.  Hannah has different masks that she puts on and since the reader is in Hannah's head, we can see her choose her words or actions carefully with each individual person she is interacting with.  I think this is really true for most people - I know I'm not the exact same with my fiance as I am with the cashier at the grocery store - and as a reader, these different relationships and versions of Hannah we get really deepen the narrative as a whole.  (As a side note, Hannah and Dan's dynamic reminded me of Joyce and Bob from Stranger Things.)

The one part that irked me was the ending.  I had to take a few days to figure out exactly how I felt about the ending and why I felt that way.  No spoilers, obviously, so this is going to be a bit vague.  First off, I thought the ending was really well done from a technical aspect.  There were twists, turns, and more twists.  All the pieces were falling into place and some of my guesses from earlier in the book were paying off which I really enjoy in a thriller.  My guesses were only 50% accurate which was really fun to see how Lowe took what I was thinking and then went three steps further with it.  The ending also plays on reader expectations, in general.  Most readers expect in most books for the main group of characters to 'win' the story, come out on top, beat the bad guy, be somewhat happy in the end.  Plot armor is a phrase that exists for a reason which is why stories like Game of Thrones are so fun for a lot of people to read (or watch) because there is that constant threat of 'maybe this character won't make it out alive' to engage the reader.  This ending, without giving too much away, played on my expectations that the main group of characters we'd been following for the past 300+ pages were going to 'win' and when the ending came, it wasn't as cut and dry as I was expecting it to be and it felt like I had lost.  The only similar feeling I can think of is when you're watching your favorite sports team almost win and then the other team scores right near the end of the game and ends up winning the whole thing.  There's a sense of disappointment there because the game had been so good but the ending just didn't go your way.  I know the endings to thrillers can make or break a book for most people and I'll admit when I first finished the book, I was a little mad at it.  But after thinking it over for a few days and reflecting on the overall reading experience and plot as a whole, I decided while I didn't have to like the ending, I do respect it from a craft perspective and other readers who maybe didn't get as attached to certain characters might actually really like the ending.

I loved the way the flashbacks were presented and integrated into the book.  We get more and more of them as the book progresses, which lines up with Hannah remembering more as the podcast uncovers some dirty laundry each episode.  I've read a few thrillers where the reader knows more than the protagonist and while it is fun to see a character discover something the reader already knows, I do prefer to discover along side the main character.  Watching Hannah figure out what really happened 10 years ago at the same time her current life is falling apart was heartbreaking but in the best possible way because we are rooting for her the entire way.  Also, the big reveal at the end in which the reader gets a sort of flashback over the recent events to show how everything was connected was really great.  

 Overall, this is a very well crafted psychological thriller. The podcast elements are incorporated well into the storyline, interesting and complex character relationships, and while the ending stung a bit all the story lines came together perfectly in the end.

352 pages

Thanks to NetGalley and St. Martin's Press for the ARC - release date is January 26, 2021.