Romance Wrap-Up December 2020

 Not So Prince Charming - Lauren Landish

This is the second book in the Dirty Fairy Tales series and follows Gabe and Bella.  She's a down on her luck waitress and art student, he's a hitman with a heart of gold.  While this is a stand alone in terms of the romance, the underlying plot that brings Gabe and Bella together is continued from the first book so I do recommend reading the series in order.  Gabe is hired to kill Bella but once he gets close to her, he determines he must to everything in his power to protect her instead. I know hitman turned romance hero might not be everyone's cup of tea, but I loved it. I thought their chemistry was amazing from the beginning (who knew dry humping in the forest could be so hot?) and I liked how we got some cute domestic-y scenes with them together.  I do wish we would have gotten a little more of Gabe studying Bella or doing his initial recon of her so we can see how his feelings have changed.  The book opens when he has been watching her for a while and has already formed most of opinions of her whereas she has no idea who he is.  It would have been interesting to have him think of her one way and then be along with him for the journey as he finds out more about her which leads to him changing his mind.  This book is split POV between Gabe, Bella, and Blackwell (the big bad guy across the series).  We get more of Blackwell's POV in this book than we did in the first, which I really liked.  This book really reminded me of a Nicole Snow type plot where it leans a little into the action-movie space and a bit of suspension of disbelief for some aspects (Bella finding out Gabe's secret, for example) but I'm a sucker for those types of romances so I'm on board 100%.  I loved Bella as a character and really respected her trying to make her own way in the world which just made me love Gabe for taking care of her in any way she'd let him.  The whole cast of characters surrounding our main couple was really well developed and I really enjoyed the scenes with Bella and her diner family.  I thought Gabe's relationship with his brother was really sweet and I thought it was a nice twist on a revenge trope.  

  Accidental Shield - Nicole Snow

This is the sixth book in the Marriage Mistake series and follows Valerie when she wakes up with amnesia in Flint's home.  He tells her that they're married but as her memories slowly come back to her, she realizes the truth about her past isn't as clean cut as Flint made it seem.  He promises that he'll protect her - well, him and all his Navy SEAL turned private security buddies.  On the surface, this book had everything I love about Nicole Snow's stories.  Big, protective, alpha male with a heart of gold.  Strong, feisty heroine who isn't content to let the man do everything.  Fun cast of side characters.  Action plot right out of a summer blockbuster.  But where this one lost me was the amnesia plot (which is a pretty significant part of the book).  This is the second book I've read where the heroine gets amnesia and it is not a trope for me.  The first 40% or so of this book is Val cycling through being happy she's alive, wondering why she can't remember anything, trying too hard to remember and hurting herself, Flint coming in and telling her to rest, her throwing a self pity party, then she takes a nap and feels better.  Rinse and repeat.  I understand that is probably a realistic reaction to losing your memory, but I didn't need to read about it for 40% of the book when not much else was happening.  It would be one thing if we only got that cycle when we were reading Val's POV, but we get it from Flint's POV as well since he's at home caring for her.  I also didn't get any chemistry really between the two characters, which was a real shame considering they were housebound together for the majority of the book.  I did really like all the secret-ops type stuff we got into right at the end and really wish we had gotten more of that throughout the book.  Overall, I was just bored and annoyed for most of the book which made this my least favorite book of the whole series (but I'm in the minority there considering this book is tied for first place based on the Goodreads review averages). 

Out of Love - Jewel E Ann

This a NA romance that follows Livy and Slade during their last year in college.  After reading some other reviews, this is apparently a spin off standalone from the author's Jack and Jill series and there are spoilers for that series in this book (the hero from that series is Livy's dad). Livy is doing her best to live her life as she wants under the eye of her overprotective father.  Slade and his German shepherd Jericho are in one of her classes and she is instantly drawn to him, wanting to figure out his secrets.  When those secrets are revealed, Livy will have to make a choice that could disrupt her life forever.   So right off the bat, I almost DNF'd this book.  I would have, except that I had just DNF'd 2 other romance books in a row and I was determined to not make that 3 in a row.  The one thing that kept me going was Livy's relationship with Jericho.  I was confused by Livy's characterization and was even more confused why she suddenly was so fixated on Slade.  She explains in the book that she has always been fascinated by mysteries and just wanted to know if the rumors about him were true but that didn't feel believable enough to me.  If super grumpy heroes who fall for super bubbly heroines are your thing, then this book could be for you.  Slade is so grumpy that for the first 20% or so, he barely talks to Livy and just nods instead.  There were two things that really knocked this book down a few pegs for me: the lack of Slade's POV and the time jump at the end.  I think we get about 5 chapters from Slade's POV and the amount of character development done in those chapters is really fantastic.  Slade is so closed off and stoic most of the time he is with Livy that I wasn't convinced he liked her at all until we got his side of things. Also, I just personally hate the large (5yr) time skip at the end of the book.  It is just angst for angst-sake.  I felt like the exact same decisions could have been made without the time skip and it still would have been very raw and emotional. 

***Trigger warning *** Livy was almost sexually assaulted early in the book but she was saved before anything physically happened although she does have residual emotional aftereffects.  However, this acts as the catalyst for a lot of the events in the book and is referenced a whole lot so if that something you want to read about constantly then I'd pass on this one.

A Very Bossy Christmas - Kayley Loring

This story follows Declan, a corporate lawyer, and his assistant Maddie.  He asks her to be his date to three family functions between Christmas and New Years in return to giving her time off during the holidays.  She reluctantly agrees and the fun times begin.  This book is witty banter central!  Declan and Maddie can go toe for toe and each give as good as they get with the sassy remarks and quick retorts. The flirting is off the charts and both are insanely attracted to the other.  Once they give in, they are both all in to this relationship.  It was so nice to see the hero as a genuinely good guy who may strive for professional excellence but also cares about the people in his life.  I loved how integral family was for both Declan and Maddie - both had standing holiday traditions with their families and both seemed to really enjoy spending time at home.  Declan has been the first #bookboyfriend I've had in a while so I was all in.  I did find the POV switching to be a bit strange and it threw me off quite a few times.  I got my bearings quickly enough, but it wasn't as smoothly done as other books I've read.  For example, after Declan and Maddie first sleep together, we end in Maddie's POV.  Then the next part is in Declan's POV and Maddie is walking in on him dancing naked in his hotel room which is the last place we saw Maddie in her chapter.  So it took me a minute to figure out that after the sex Maddie left and went back to her room and now we've flashed forward to the next morning.  That sort of jarring jump happened a handful of times for me and it was just enough to take me out of the story that it got a little annoying. I also found the romance moved VERY quickly, much more quickly than I felt either of their characters would actually move in real life.  The book tries to explain this away with the "when you know, you know" idea but it didn't quite land for me.  

Beauty and the Beast - Georgia Le Carre

This story follows Skye and Luca. Skye's father is sick and in order to pay for his treatments, she sold herself to a man for what she thought would only be a month but turned out to be longer.  Luca sees Skye at a party with this man and decides he must have her.  Since he is a mob boss, the other man doesn't argue and agrees to let Luca have Skye.  Luca and Skye agree that in exchange for her being his for 1 month, he would pay for her father's treatments until he is all better (there's an actual contract involved this time).  Skye is swept away to a mansion outside Boston where she'll be staying for the next month and subject to Luca's every whim.  What initially intrigued me about this story was the 1 month deadline.  In most mafia romances, the heroine is sold/kidnapped/etc with the intention of being with the hero forever and they eventually fall in love.  In this case, both parties were aware of the relationship's expiration date.  Unfortunately, that one plot point was the only thing I really found interesting in this book.  There were a few times where interesting plot points were brought up but there was so little emotional payoff or the potential issue was resolved immediately that it was like the actual issue never mattered.  For example, there's a gardener at the mansion and Skye finds out she needs to win him over before he'd let her join him in the garden.  Sounds like a great time for some character development, right? Nah.  Skye brings him 1 box of cookies and he was suddenly all smiles and let her garden with him. I also honestly didn't understand why either character actually liked the other one besides their chemistry in the bedroom.  There weren't really any tender moments where one revealed a small secret or gradually grew closer. 

The Christmas Fix - Lucy Score

This is the sequel to Mr Fixer Upper and follows Cat as she tries to get her home improvement TV show to save Merry, CT after a hurricane floods the town.  The town manager, Noah, thinks she is just going to use his town as a sob story and he wants to prove that the town doesn't need her help.  He eventually relents and Cat's new mission is to show him just how wrong he is about her. I really liked this story and loved both Cat and Noah.  Cat is a strong, independent, smart businesswoman who is used to people underestimating her and she enjoys showing them how wrong they are.  Noah is a divorced dad of a 12 year old daughter and is a professional risk mitigater with the town budget.  It was a little strange to connect more with the hero in a romance book rather than the heroine but I could see so much of myself in Noah.  I loved how slowly him and Cat got together.  They went from enemies to angry flirting, to regular flirting, to actually being together.  I did feel like the book dragged on a bit in the middle because there were so many projects around town that Cat was working on but there was a good mix of character growth and relationship growth scenes intermixed with the construction scenes so it wasn't too much of a drag.  I do with there was a bit more of an internal struggle with Cat when she decides what she wants at the end of the book. She's a very internally focused character when it comes to making decisions so she didn't really do much talking it out with other characters so I would have liked to get more of her internal struggle with her decision.  I did love Noah's declaration at the end (it made me cry!) and was perfect for his character - not too over-the-top emotional but still 100% authentic and real.

Violent Beginnings - J.L. Beck and C. Hallman

This is the second book in the Moretti Crime Family series and takes place during the same time as the first book, Savage Beginnings.  We're following Markus, member of the mafia, and Fallon, the girl he buys at auction.  She reminds him of his lost first love and his main struggle through the book is battling his emotions between how he thinks he should treat her and how he wants to treat her.  This is a dark, mafia, captive romance so there is a pretty heavy amount of non-con scenes at the beginning as well as some physical and mental abuse.  I really appreciated how much we were in Markus's head, especially when he was doing some not great things.  I think it really helped round out his character and since he's so stoic on the outside, we needed that internal battle on the page for his change at the end to come across as genuine. I found Fallon interesting because she was so much more stoic than a normal person would be in that situation.  Multiple characters notice and remark how she isn't crying or screaming or trying to get away.  Fallon initially says she is just trying to play it smart because she knows there's no way she can get away from Markus but we later find out what her true reasoning is.  I felt like the first chunk of the book really dragged on.  I know it was all establishing their relationship and how they slowly grow to trust one another and maybe even care about the other but I wish we would have gotten more of the main conflict earlier.  I was getting a little bored with the domestic scenes. I also thought one of the main reveals at the end was unnecessary and I found it explained in a confusing way so it took me a minute to figure out what, exactly, the 'twist' was.  I think the whole ending would have been a lot cleaner if that part wasn't included.

Runaway Road - Devney Perry

This is the first in the Runaway series and follows newly divorced Londyn as she sets off on a cross country road trip from Boston to California to find a friend from her past.  She gets a flat tire outside a small town in West Virginia and meets local mechanic Brooks.  The two form a friendship that quickly turns flirtatious and then goes from there.  I really liked Londyn's backstory as a runaway teen who lived in the back seat of a car for years.  I think it really touched on a part of society that many people don't experience and may judge others who have been through those times so to see a character who has come out of that background and is now a fully functioning adult was nice.  I do wish we would have gotten more of her relationship with her ex husband.  She gives the reader an overview of how they got together and how it ended and throughout the book we get snippets about how he'd treat her if she did X or Y but I didn't feel like that relationship had as much of an impact on the plot as I was expecting it to (especially since it was a very recent divorce).  I thought Brooks was a total sweetie and it was obvious that he had his life together and was really looking for a partner.  I loved their chemistry together and I really liked how we got a good number of scenes of just them talking about life and their backgrounds and everything. This book reminded me of a less-angsty, less dramatic version of Drive Me Wild by Melanie Harlow.  

The Obsession Duet - J.L. Beck and C. Hallman

Cruel Obsession (book 1) and Deadly Obsession (book 2)

These books follow Dove and Zane. She is just a normal girl, he's a mafia hitman who is very protective of her and stalks her to ensure her safety.  I picked up this duet after reading a preview at the end of Violent Beginnings.  The two books are shorter than I normally look for (book 1 is 196 pages, book 2 is 248 pages) so I sort of viewed them in my head as one longer book and read them back to back.  Not much changed for me between the two books - the characters, writing, and plot were consistent.  There was so much about this duet that I wanted to like, but the reality just wasn't where I wanted it to be.  The pacing of these books was giving me whiplash.  It felt like we would accelerate really fast to a high tension/high emotion scene and then the next paragraph would suddenly be slamming the breaks back down to a pretty mundane scene.  And this happened a lot throughout the book.  I also couldn't get a handle on Zane's character.  His chapters were really interesting because we got a lot of his inner thoughts and conflicts about how he's treating Dove and what decisions he needs to make but I never felt grounded, never felt like he came to any real conclusions.  It seemed like every time we were in his head, he was constantly wrestling over the same decisions which ended up being frustrating because I just wanted him to pick a lane already.  I thought the dynamics and relationships between the different mafia families was well done and they had very clear distinctions.  I did get a little irritated at the plot because it felt like Dove was just a pawn that the different mafia families kept stealing from each other but it all came together in the end alright for me.  I thought Zane and Dove were really cute together and they really seemed to understand each other despite them living very different lives.  I also appreciated how strong of a character Dove was, despite her name, and how she took the initiative to save herself and Zane.  She wasn't ever a helpless heroine and she proved herself a handful of times throughout the book to be very resourceful and smart since she couldn't physically overpower anyone.

The Widow Catcher - Jonette Blake

 The Widow Catcher follows Delia Frost, a bank teller, as she gets wrapped up in a web of mystery and murder.  She gets invited to a book club where the other elderly members are slowly dying one by one and the host of the book club believes they are being murdered.  However, all the deaths appear to be accidental.  The host of the club wants Delia to investigate these deaths in the hopes of being able to prove there was foul play involved.  Set in a small town in Australia, most of the town knows each other which only deepens the mystery as there's a good chance the killer is someone Delia knows.

I really liked Delia as a character.  She was interesting, flawed, and not someone I would normally picture as the protagonist in a murder mystery.  She is in her early 50s and is thinking about quitting her job so she and her husband can travel around the country.  In most of the thriller/mysteries I read, if the protagonist is a woman she is normally in her mid-30s and is trying to work her way up the career ladder or make some sort of headway in her life.  Delia, however, is on the back end of that slope.  She's had a long career at the bank and has two grown children who just left the nest.  It was a really interesting perspective to read from and we know exactly how Delia feels about these changes in her life.  She loves her job at the bank, she wants her children back home, and she's growing a bit resentful of her husband.  I think she's a very interesting and flawed character and she made for a fun reading experience.  It was refreshing to have a mystery protagonist who wasn't a cop or journalist as is the case in many books.  I thought the bank teller angle was interesting and gave her particular insight into the lives of these people who were being murdered.

My biggest problem with the book was Delia's lack of agency in the last 40%.  In the first 60%, she was reluctantly getting pulled into this murder plot.  She initially thought it was just some old lady going crazy but she slowly realizes it is real.  But then she doesn't really do anything about it?  The last half of the book really felt like Delia was a direct reader stand in who just stood around as a pawn and had the plot happen to her.  I didn't feel like she was making any decisions herself, she didn't solve the case, and in the end it seemed like Delia was in pretty much the same place as when she started the book.  I wanted this nice bank teller lady to be the one to crack the case on these murders that no one else believes are murders but I didn't get the satisfying ending I was looking for.  I was also expecting Delia's parrot Monty to play a bigger role in the plot since he was so good at mimicry but that didn't happen.  The first half of the book deals a lot with Delia always putting other people before herself.  It takes her forever to tell her husband her true feelings about their current living situation because she doesn't want to upset him.  There's a lot of her going back and forth with herself weighing the options of maybe she can just grin and bear it so she doesn't have to speak up.  I was expecting her to come out of her shell a little bit though this murder investigation and stand up for herself more.  And while there was a bit of character development, it was no where near as much as I wanted or think there needed to be in the book.

I liked the overall murder mystery plot.  We get chapters from the POV of the various women who are being murdered so the reader knows right from the get-go that the murders are real but we don't know who is committing them.  And then we see other characters reading about the death in the newspaper and call it an accident.  I think the real tension in the story comes from the reader knowing the truth and waiting for Delia to figure it out.  I thought the book club angle was interesting and I wished there were more scenes from that club.  It was fun to see them all interact and Delia's somewhat judgemental attitude toward them. I thought centering the mysteries around older people dying was really interesting because one character even mentions that elderly deaths aren't looked at as closely as if someone younger had died so, in a way, it is easier to get away with murder that way.  However, I was a bit disappointed that Delia basically gets the whole explanation laid out for pretty early on in the book and then the rest of the story was her struggling if she believed it or not and thinking about getting proof one way or the other. I think if Delia had more agency in the second half of the book and actually decided to get concrete proof against the person accused of these murders, then it could have been really interesting to see her grapple with the outcome of that investigation (especially if she wanted the accusations to turn out false but they were true).  However, it felt like she just tip-toed around the whole situation and didn't want to be involved at all.

Overall, it was an interesting idea and I liked the first half, but the story really fell flat at the end and I wanted more agency from our protagonist.

260 pages

Thanks to BookSirens for the review copy. I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.

Possession - Katie Lowe

 Possession is a psychological thriller that follows Hannah as her past comes back to threaten her future.  Ten yeas ago, Hannah's husband was murdered in their home but Hannah doesn't remember anything from that night.  She is, understandably, the main person of interest in the case until the police end up charging someone else with the murder.  Hannah takes her daughter and moves on with her life until a popular true crime podcast dedicates a whole season to her husband's murder.  The podcast casts doubts on the case, Hannah's memory loss, and unearths other troubling parts of Hannah's past.  

The part of the book I was most worried about ended up being my favorite - the podcast.  Despite loving to read thrillers and watching all sorts of police procedurals on TV, I have yet to fall in love with the true crime genre.  I've tried a book here and there, but didn't like them mostly because I found the writing pretty dry and I felt the story leaned too hard on the 'this is all true' aspect to pull the reader into the narrative. I know true crime podcasts are very popular and I haven't tried any of them out yet. That being said, I know how popular true crime podcasts are and incorporating true crime podcasts into thriller novels is a bit of a recent trend. Before reading this, I was worried it would come off too heavy handed or would be used as an excuse for an exposition dump.  I was pleasantly surprised that neither of these options ended up being true.  I think the podcast angle really worked well for me because it was set up as the antagonist in the story.  Hannah is not a part of the podcast and she listens every week just like the rest of the audience.  We don't get any perspectives or behind the scenes from the podcast host so the reader sees the podcast as an outside force coming to ruin Hannah's life.  I loved getting Hannah's reactions as she listened to the podcast episodes and it was a constant source of tension in the novel since the episodes are released weekly.  

 I think Lowe did an incredible job writing the slow psychological breakdown of Hannah.  Psychological thrillers, from a reader perspective, can be tricky to get just right.  In this case, the gradual but consistent disassembly of Hannah's life and what she thought was true was incredibly paced and explored.  The story is told in first person so we are in Hannah's head and there is a lot going on in there.  Hannah is a psychologist and is therefore a bit hyper-aware of her actions and thoughts but that doesn't stop her from doing things that she knows maybe she shouldn't.  These sorts of contrasts grow in magnitude throughout the book and give the reader a really good view into Hannah's mental descent.  While the podcast is the main antagonist in the story, much of the tension and emotion in the book comes from Hannah internally.  Sure, once a few episodes are aired, the community starts whispering about Hannah and there are more external consequences but the majority of the story is Hannah and how she's dealing with finding out these missing parts of her husband's murder. The way the narrative style changes during the story is also incredibly well done and so gradual that I really didn't notice it was happening - which is exactly how I like it!  It is really fun to go back to the first few chapters and compare them to the last few and compare the style of both sections.  Lowe did a great job getting the reader into Hannah's head and keeping them there all the way through to the ending.  

The relationships Hannah has with the other characters were handled really well.  I think each character - Dan, Evie, Darcy, and Sarah - all give us one particular part of Hannah's life and the reader can use that relationship as a lens to see how Hannah is coping.  Sometimes, with side characters, I can get them confused if they don't show up often enough or aren't distinct enough from the other characters.  For example, if a main character has three friends, all three better be distinctive from each other and each serve their own purpose in the narrative or else my brain is going to just squish them all together.  In this case, each of the side characters were very distinct and Hannah is different with each of them as well.  Hannah has different masks that she puts on and since the reader is in Hannah's head, we can see her choose her words or actions carefully with each individual person she is interacting with.  I think this is really true for most people - I know I'm not the exact same with my fiance as I am with the cashier at the grocery store - and as a reader, these different relationships and versions of Hannah we get really deepen the narrative as a whole.  (As a side note, Hannah and Dan's dynamic reminded me of Joyce and Bob from Stranger Things.)

The one part that irked me was the ending.  I had to take a few days to figure out exactly how I felt about the ending and why I felt that way.  No spoilers, obviously, so this is going to be a bit vague.  First off, I thought the ending was really well done from a technical aspect.  There were twists, turns, and more twists.  All the pieces were falling into place and some of my guesses from earlier in the book were paying off which I really enjoy in a thriller.  My guesses were only 50% accurate which was really fun to see how Lowe took what I was thinking and then went three steps further with it.  The ending also plays on reader expectations, in general.  Most readers expect in most books for the main group of characters to 'win' the story, come out on top, beat the bad guy, be somewhat happy in the end.  Plot armor is a phrase that exists for a reason which is why stories like Game of Thrones are so fun for a lot of people to read (or watch) because there is that constant threat of 'maybe this character won't make it out alive' to engage the reader.  This ending, without giving too much away, played on my expectations that the main group of characters we'd been following for the past 300+ pages were going to 'win' and when the ending came, it wasn't as cut and dry as I was expecting it to be and it felt like I had lost.  The only similar feeling I can think of is when you're watching your favorite sports team almost win and then the other team scores right near the end of the game and ends up winning the whole thing.  There's a sense of disappointment there because the game had been so good but the ending just didn't go your way.  I know the endings to thrillers can make or break a book for most people and I'll admit when I first finished the book, I was a little mad at it.  But after thinking it over for a few days and reflecting on the overall reading experience and plot as a whole, I decided while I didn't have to like the ending, I do respect it from a craft perspective and other readers who maybe didn't get as attached to certain characters might actually really like the ending.

I loved the way the flashbacks were presented and integrated into the book.  We get more and more of them as the book progresses, which lines up with Hannah remembering more as the podcast uncovers some dirty laundry each episode.  I've read a few thrillers where the reader knows more than the protagonist and while it is fun to see a character discover something the reader already knows, I do prefer to discover along side the main character.  Watching Hannah figure out what really happened 10 years ago at the same time her current life is falling apart was heartbreaking but in the best possible way because we are rooting for her the entire way.  Also, the big reveal at the end in which the reader gets a sort of flashback over the recent events to show how everything was connected was really great.  

 Overall, this is a very well crafted psychological thriller. The podcast elements are incorporated well into the storyline, interesting and complex character relationships, and while the ending stung a bit all the story lines came together perfectly in the end.

352 pages

Thanks to NetGalley and St. Martin's Press for the ARC - release date is January 26, 2021.

The Wife Upstairs - Rachel Hawkins

This novel is marketed as a twist on the classic Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte.  It takes place in a gated community in Birmingham, Alabama and follows dog walker Jane as she meets Eddie Rochester six months after his wife, Bea, and her friend, Blanche, disappeared.  Jane and Eddie's relationship quickly blossoms and before long, Jane is no longer the neighborhood dog walker but instead becomes a member of the community.  As Jane and Eddie's relationship grows more serious, Jane starts to hear whispers of theories about what really happened to Bea and Blanche and as much as she wants to put these rumors out of her mind, Jane just can't seem to stay away.

I'll admit that I haven't read Jane Eyre, but I knew enough of the plot from just pop culture references to get a general idea of what this plot was going to be.  After I finished reading The Wife Upstairs, I did look up a more detailed synopsis of the plot just to see the similarities. In my opinion, The Wife Upstairs takes a perfect amount of inspiration from Jane Eyre but there are enough modern twists and changes that make it a unique story.  I found this a very fun and enjoyable read and didn't feel like I was missing out on anything from not having read Jane Eyre.

 By far my most favorite thing about this read was the actual writing.  The prose was pretty straightforward, not super flowery or stylized, but it sucked me into the story so fast I was 30% in before I knew it.  The majority of the story is Jane becoming one of the ladies in this community and listening to them gossip about past events.  In theory, that could come off as very boring and lazy storytelling.  However, Hawkins injects so much personality into Jane's inner thoughts or into the little witty retorts that other characters have that it becomes so interesting.  I got the same feeling when I read The Girl on the Train where, for the majority of the book, there wasn't a whole lot of action going on and most of the characters were pretty unlikeable, but there was that certain pull in the narrative that just kept me turning the pages. 

I really enjoyed the way the narrative was split up.  We get both Jane's and Bea's POV in different parts of the novel as well as flashbacks to both their lives before meeting Eddie.  I think this not only plays on reader expectation, but it gives a really interesting comparison between what Jane is hearing from the neighbors and then the truth of what happened in the past.  Being in both Jane's and Bea's head also allows the reader to know exactly what type of person each woman is.  Jane is hiding her identity for some reason, thinks often about stealing items from the wealthy ladies of the community, and she makes very calculated moves in her relationship with Eddie.  Bea is very similar in that she manipulates the people and situations around her for her benefit.  I think the POV switching was done at just the right time to heighten the tension of the story.  I find that some multi-POV books will use one POV as almost a forced cliffhanger where the main POV has a major plot development but instead of exploring that more, we have to hang out in a secondary POV for a while to artificially build tension and suspense.  I didn't find that was the case in this book and I was relieved.  It really felt like the two POVs were working together and building on one another, which I give Hawkins big points for.

Maybe it was just the fact that this was a gated community, but it was giving me major Desperate Housewives vibes the whole time.  The reader gets these glimpses of the underbelly of these perfectly manicured houses and lives and each time we would get a hint of something going on under the surface, I just wanted to dive right in.  The little battles and snide remarks that Jane first puts up with and then participates in were very well done and showed Jane's character development.  I also found it really interesting how invested Jane was in fitting in with the other ladies of the neighborhood.  She was constantly evaluating how they acted, how they dressed, what they talked about and then would imitate them in order to get closer to their inner circle.  I also thought it was interesting that all of these characters are flawed in some way and it is a little hard to root for any one character in particular since they all are active participants, in a way, of their own unhappiness.  We know Jane isn't some naive girl who gets blinded by a whirlwind romance and Bea wasn't an innocent victim of circumstance.

I do wish we would have gotten more of the relationship between Jane and Eddie.  I never really found their relationship believable.  In the above mentioned Mashable article, they state that du Maurier never saw Rebecca as a romance and didn't like when people categorized it as such and I can get on board with that idea.  However, I would have liked to see more emotional development and feelings on both sides. We get Jane's POV which does show that she really does like Eddie, but she also manipulates him into moving faster along in their relationship at times in order to cement her place in the neighborhood.  These inner thoughts and manipulations are contrasted by other thoughts about how in love with Eddie she is and how, much to her own surprise, she really can see a life with him.  It came off a little disjointed for me and maybe if we had more slice of life scenes with the two of them being an actual couple, I could understand their relationship more.  

I really loved the ending. No spoilers, of course, but I think all the characters got their appropriate ending.  The ending is a little open-ended on some details but overall, I think the reader gets a good idea of where these characters are ending up after the whole ordeal of the book.  Toward the end, we actually get a scene with Jane and the police detective investigating Bea and Blanche's disappearance and I wish we had gotten more of these scenes throughout the book.  It was really interesting to be in Jane's head as she chose her words and way of speaking specifically to mislead the detective.  Jane knew she needed to come off as X so she made sure to say Y and act like Z in order to do that.  I wouldn't say that I was rooting for Jane by the end because she was a good character that I wanted to have a happy ending, I would say that I was rooting for Jane by the end because she's just so damn good at manipulating to get what she needs and I want to see her do more of that.

 

 Overall, a great mystery read that takes a classic tale and gives it a fresh new spin. The characters were all fantastic and the writing style really pulled me along.  It was a bit of a slow burn mystery but really pays off in the end. 

 304 pages

Thanks to NetGalley and St. Martin's Press for the ARC!  Publication date is January 05, 2021.

A House at the Bottom of a Lake - Josh Malerman

 First off, let me say I loved this story.  But, let's just get it out of the way now, this book will not be for everyone.  It is very weird and sort of hard to talk about without going into specific details.  But based on the reviews I've read, people either really love it or are sort of meh about it.  I fall on the love it side of the argument.  This is a novella following two 17-year olds who, on their first date, discover a house at the bottom of a lake.  The rest of the story is mostly them exploring the house and exploring their feelings for each other.  I'm not very well read in this sort of weird/speculative/magic realism type of genre so I'm not sure what the best way to describe this book is.  I was trying to explain it to my non-reader boyfriend and said it was very similar levels and types of weird to the Pan's Labyrinth movie (which he's seen).  After having some more time to think and reflect, I've settled on that comparison as the best I can think of.  This house is based in reality - the characters are literally canoeing across a lake and literally get scuba gear to go down and explore - but there's an otherworldly element and feeling once they're inside the house.

My absolute favorite part of this book is the tone and horror elements.  I've seen some reviews questioning why anyone would consider this book horror and while there aren't any graphic scenes or much of a direct threat to the characters' well-being but I don't think those are the only things that can count as horror.  I would say maybe 'unsettling' or 'eerie' would be a better description for the tone, but I entirely disagree with the people saying this isn't horror in the slightest.  There were scenes that made me feel scared, claustrophobic, and even a little panicky.  But these scenes were balanced well with much more light scenes of the two characters just relaxing on the lake, soaking up some sun. One of the taglines for this book is "just because a house is empty, doesn’t mean nobody’s home" and I think this really sets the tone for the book.  In the same vein, my favorite line of the book is something along the lines of: 'they wouldn't ask how or why, but they never thought about asking who'. In my opinion, this isn't the type of book to really cause nightmares, but it is one that will put you on edge enough to maybe double check that the doors are locked or think twice about hearing that creak in the house.

I was a little icked out by the fact that we get some fairly explicit intimacy scenes between the two characters who are only 17. They weren't long or drawn out, but they were explicit enough that I was a little uncomfortable.  And this is coming from someone who reads a ton of romance books with a ton of explicit sex scenes.  It didn't bother me enough to knock it down in rating or tarnish my overall feelings about the book, but I do know some people feel differently about this than I do so I just wanted to throw it out there.

 I really enjoyed how many scenes we got of these two characters exploring the house.  I was a bit afraid going into the book that they might only go in the house a handful of times and then spend the rest of the book just talking about the house.  But I'd say the majority of the middle of the book was spent underwater which was by far my favorite part of the book.  I think the descriptions were really well done and I could clearly picture where the characters were going while they were in the house.  It was really helpful that, when they were taking turns exploring, one character would start where the other left off so we didn't get an overload of repetition of the first initial rooms which I think would have made the narrative drag on.  Instead, every time they were exploring the house, they found a new area to explore and the reader was exploring right along side of them.

The final note I want to mention about this book is something that might just be a 'me-thing' and I'm not sure if it is a necessarily a pro or con, but this book feels like something that I would have read in an English Lit class.  It has that literary fiction feeling but with enough of those 'other' elements (magical realism or whatever you want to call it) that it feels like it would lead to some really interesting class discussions.  The ending is also pretty open to interpretation which, again, would be open to some interesting discussions.  I'll fully admit that I'm not really a big reader of contemporary or literary fiction books.  I'm much more of a genre-heavy reader (romance, thrillers, occasional sci-fi, etc) and while this book did have those genre elements, I felt it had a much more literary/contemporary lean than what the synopsis led me to believe.  I'm also not sure if I think that all contemporary/literary sounding books would come across like books to be read in school, but I definitely thought that about this one. I really only got this feeling in the beginning and ending 15%s of the book, the middle was much more heavy into those genre elements and I was very invested in the exploration of the house.

 

Overall, a really weird/speculative/magic realism type of story with some nice unsettling and eerie moments sprinkled in.  Feels like the kind of book you need to have a discussion with other people about and maybe read a few times to get everything out of it.  It isn't for everyone, but I really liked it in the end.

115 pages

Thanks to NetGalley and Random House Publishing Group - Ballantine for the ARC.

Originally published: October 31st 2016 by This Is Horror. 

New publishing date: January 19, 2021 by Random House.

 

 

November Romance Wrap-up

Bit of a lighter romance reading month because I was also participating in NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) and the Thanksgiving Holiday.  I've also been really getting back into thrillers, so these romance wrap-ups might become monthly or bi-weekly.  I always update my Instagram when I finish a book with my star rating and a short review so give a follow if you'd like!

Love & Other Disasters - Terri Jones

This book follows Violet and J.P. who met through mutual friends one night, except Violet was introduced as Katia.  They had a one night stand and Violet left in the morning without leaving her number.  Embarrassed by the fact that she used a fake name and had a drunken night with a stranger, Violet plans to never see J.P. again.  However, he turns out to be the new CFO of the company she works at.  The book's summary made it seem like this would be a fun rom-com / office romance / mistaken identity type of story.  It wasn't.  I found the pacing of this to be off from the normal romance plot pacing. Violet and J.P had their main conflict around the 60% mark and I'm used to that conflict coming much later.  It seemed like the second half of the book was really more focused on Violet and J.P.'s personal growth in their own separate lives, which was fine, but wasn't what I was expecting.  The book deals with some pretty serious topics and while I appreciate the effort, I overall found it a little disappointing that these topics came  up when the two main characters were apart.  While I did like Violet and J.P. together - they were super cute and seemed to fall immediately into a feeling of being relaxed around each other - I had a hard time understanding some of their reactions.  J.P., when he finds out about Violet's secret, seemed to overreact to the situation.  Same when Violet finds out a secret that J.P. was keeping from her.  I could see the overall character arcs that Jones was going for, but it seemed like there were some situations that really got put into overdrive just to give something to contrast later interactions to.  I did like how involved the sister dynamic became to the plot and thought that was a really nice way to show Violet growing as a person.  Also - yay for characters going to therapy to try and better themselves and not being immediately fixed by falling in love!  This book reminded me of a much more tame, less dramatic version of The Executive by Winter Renshaw.  Overall, I thought the plot was pretty good, the characters worked well together, and the romance was cute, it just wasn't exactly what I thought it was going to be based on the summary.

Thanks to NetGalley and Enchanted Publishing for the ARC.  Publishing date is December 9, 2020.

Take A Number - Amy Daws

This is the fourth book in the Wait for Me series and follows bakery owner Norah and silent investor Dean.  For some reason, didn't know this was part of a series when I picked it up but after looking through the summaries of the first 3 books, I think this book does a good job of bringing back previous characters into the plot of this book.  This book was checking all the boxes - fake dating! boss heroine who knows what she wants!  big declaration of love!  heroine and hero both have personal growth journeys! fun cast of side characters! - it was a super fun rom-com which is just what I was in the mood for.  Norah and Dean start fake dating so Norah's mom can get off her case about always being single.  They extend the fake dating to Dean can have a date to his friend's wedding in a month.  Fake dating turns into friends with benefits turns into real feelings turns into love.  I really liked the amount of conversation the two characters have with each other about what they want out of life and what they're looking for in a relationship (or lack thereof).  They are both 30 and they really felt realistic to that age.  The beginning of the book starts with Dean flirting with Norah at her bakery and we quickly learn that he's just a big flirt with a lot of people.  It was refreshing that once they were getting closer, that Norah didn't get super insecure - she got a little jealous and a little insecure at times, but nothing out of characters for a boss lady like her.  I do wish Dean's family drama was a little more developed and we got more scenes of him with his family to really understand why he feels the way he does about relationships.  

Puck Me Secretly - Odette Stone

This is the first book in the Vancouver Wolves Hockey series and follows player Max and assistant General Manager Rory.  The two meet as seatmates on a crashing plane and Max helps Rory through the whole ordeal.  The two share one steamy night together, then Max leaves without saying goodbye.  Turns out, Rory is the daughter (and new assistant GM) of the GM for the hockey team Max is now playing on.  Max has a troublesome past history and one of Rory's new duties is to keep him in line so their team can go all the way this year.  Max has his own secrets, but the more Rory gets to know him, the more she doesn't think he's what everyone says he is.  I loved this book - absolutely loved it.  Turns out, I really like sports romances when they aren't New Adult or about baseball. I really liked the slight turn of the trope where instead of the woman coming in to work and finding the hero is her new boss, it is the other way around.  I also appreciated how a good amount of the plot is this book revolves around Rory finding her place at work and showing people she's more than just the boss's daughter.  I really liked the characters of both Rory and Max and thought their chemistry together was off the charts.  I loved how they were so straightforward with each other about their feelings and fears - no miscommunications or any of that nonsense.  This book is told through Rory's POV and I did find myself wishing at times that we had the more traditional split POV of Rory and Max, but since both characters were so open and honest about their feelings, it didn't feel like anything was really missing.  I also found the supporting cast of characters to be really well developed.  

*Trigger warning for discussions of sexual assaults - no graphic details are given, but it is a pretty significant plot point to some characters so it does come up a few times in the book. 

Make Me Yours - Melanie Harlow

This is the second book in the Bellamy Creek series and follows Cheyenne and Cole.  He's a widowed single dad, local cop, brother's best friend, and her neighbor.  She's a kindergarten teacher at his kid's school and has had a crush on him since they were kids.  One drunken mishap of sending a dirty text she didn't mean to and the two start to reconcile their feelings for one another.  This is a real cute, feel good, friends to lovers story that I absolutely devoured!  I'll admit, brother's best friend isn't my favorite trope because I don't really like all the sneaking around and lying it usually entails.  However, in this case, I was so so happy that all parties involved were adults and when her brother catches on that the two have feelings for each other, he openly gives his blessing despite making Cole promise never to touch his little sister back when they were teens. I also really loved Cheyenne's characterization.  Sure, she's been in love with Cole for forever, but she also has a really good sense of what she wants out of her life and when Cole isn't able to give that to her, she is able to specifically tell him what she wants and why this isn't going to work for her and she walks away (which she does twice in the book!).  I thought Cole's emotional journey was really well done and I appreciate, as always, the role that therapy plays in the book.  I also loved that the happy ending didn't come when things were all of a sudden perfect, they were still working out some stuff but it didn't stop them from being together.  I do wish we would have gotten more development of the two characters earlier on in the book.  I wanted the book to start like 5 chapters sooner than it actually did.  It felt like we jumped right into the middle of their relationship beginning since we see from both POVs that they are into each other.  I wanted a bit more of the friendship dynamic to be built before the flirting started (which it basically does from page 1).  I also would love more scenes with just the guys hanging out.  I really liked their dynamic and how they talked about relationships and feelings together in a way that I haven't seen much in books.  I can't wait for book 3 which I'm predicting will be Moretti's story.

Nolan - Jane Henry

This is book 3 in the Dangerous Doms series.  The story follows Nolan, the youngest of the McCarthy brothers, and Sheena, an investigative reporter who has been hounding the McCarthy crime family.  While technically each book in the series is a standalone book, I would recommend reading them in order.  The first book gives a lot of details about how this crime network works and some of the different crime families in the area and the second book gives Nolan and Sheena's initial interactions.  Nolan and Sheena's love story was much more sweet than I was expecting.  The first two books have the older brothers marry someone they captured (book 1) and a tribute given from a rival clan (book 2) but while there was some pressure for Nolan and Sheena to be together, it wasn't as dark of a romance as the first 2 books. I was expecting this book to be darker, in a way, because from the glimpse of Nolan and Sheena's interactions in the second book, I was expecting their relationship to have much more turmoil than it ended up having.  I did really like Sheena's siblings and their complex family dynamic was an interesting contrast to the McCarthy clan.  I loved Nolan and Sheena together, but it did feel like this was going for an enemies to lovers trope but I felt we missed out on a lot of the enemies part since those happened off page in the other books.  I do find Sheena the most interesting heroine of the series so far and her and Nolan's final decision to be together reminded me sort of like a Prince Harry and Meghan Markle situation (but with much less family drama). While there wasn't a cliffhanger ending for the romance, there were some plot threads introduced right at the end of this book that I assume continue into the next which I normally don't love, but I've really enjoyed all of this series so far so I'm looking forward to reading the next book.

Left For Wild - Harloe Rae

This story follows Halder and Blakely as they try to survive being abandoned in the Canadian ilderness.  Blakely is a social worker at the prison where Halder lived for 5 years.  He is released early because of good behavior and wants her to be assigned to his case.  However, they are both kidnapped by the people who framed Halder and are dropped off in the middle of the snowy Canadian wilderness in October and these two strangers must work together to get out alive.  To be honest, this might be my most frustrating read of the year.  The premise sounded interesting - framed hero trying to prove his innocence, a bit of a forbidden romance, survival story - but most of those elements really fell flat.  This book felt like the author had the idea for her characters to fall in love while being out in the wilderness and then had to come up with some more plot points to try and expand the story to a full length novel.  This might have just been better off as a short erotica novella where two backpackers have to work together after a freak snowstorm or something like that.  The chemistry between Halder and Blakely was off the charts.  A lot of the reviews I've read call Halder their new favorite book boyfriend and I have to agree.  He's super smart, hot, protective, funny, charming, and sexy.  Blakely is also really spunky and the banter between these two was the best part of the book (which we luckily get a whole bunch of).  However, there was absolutely no conflict at all in the story, at least none that the characters have to deal with head on.  I can't get into specifics, but there's a lot of story developments into the non-romance plot lines that happen off page.  This gave the book, for me, a really low tension which was not what I wanted from a book where characters are abandoned in the wilderness by some sort of psychotic mob boss guy.  So, if you're looking for more of a romance/suspense book, this isn't for you.  But if you're looking for a really cute couple that bone in front of their campfire, then this just might be your next read.

Never Enough - Kelly Elliott

This is the first book in the Meet Me in Montana series and follows pro bull rider Brock and interior designer Lincoln.  Lincoln has recently escaped her hometown of Atlanta, Georgia to prove to her parents (and herself) that she can be successful without her father's influence.  Brock spends most of his time traveling the bull riding circuit while his young son is at home with his family.  After the sudden loss of his wife, Brock has never stepped foot in the home they shared.  Lincoln and her best friend Kaylee move in to Brock's old house and feelings that Brock didn't know he had start to rise to the surface.  But going forward with Lincoln will mean moving on from his past - something that Brock isn't sure he's strong enough to do.  Overall, I liked this book, but did find it a little dull.  I'm pretty sure it is just because I'm not the target demographic for books about single dads with young kids.  I did find all the bull riding parts interesting and thought it was an interesting look at small towns.  I really liked Lincoln and thought she was a super fun heroine.  She was strong and determined to succeed but I wish we would have gotten to see her really shine in her interior design business.  I wasn't quite sold on their relationship - it was a little too instalove for my tastes - but they did have a ton of chemistry coming off the page so that part was good.  I thought the surrounding cast of characters was really interesting and liked the family dynamic that was developed as well as the small town gossip tree.  There were a few plot points where the foreshadowing was done a little weird, in my opinion, and it felt like the reader should have already known about these incidents like this was book 2 in a series instead of book 1.  I did find myself much more interested in Kaylee's and Ty's relationship which is developed in book 2 of this series so I look forward to reading more.